looking at the world from the bottom of a well

house news:
they have the "start" in their hands at the sales office. it should be started soon. we went by there last sunday and they have the concrete slab frames for the lot right next to ours. its gonna be sweet. i can't wait.

i hate being sick. i've been sick for 2 weeks now with a dang sinus infection and chest congestion. i am 97.3% recovered but that last part has been tough to deal with. it makes it hard to sleep, eat, and workout. so i've been pretty miserable. that and other things...

i need a down day. i need life to go on hold and give me a moment to think and maybe just let me stay in bed for a whole day or two with a good movie or book. and then when i feel ready, take life off pause and i will keep going. i need a break. always something going on, never a chance to catch up, to breathe, to regroup, to take a step back and re-evaluate objectives.

we just dropped a thou on civic repairs. dang car. it hit 100,000 miles a couple weeks back. we took it in for an oil change and discovered a coolant system problem. figured since they were in there might as well let them give her a good fixin' up. she needed it. just sucks spending money on crap like that.

i've decided i am an emotional eater. i either over do it or under do it based on my feelings that day. i've felt like crap for 3 days and have eaten nothing but crap for three days. i was down 8lbs in 5 1/2 weeks, as of wednesday. i ate nothing but chocolate (donut, girl scout cookies, and a limited edition chocolate twix - surprisingly tasty) and mexican food today. not only do i feel sick to my stomach (which doesn't help with the overal crap feeling) but i am pretty sure i just undid all my hard work of eating right and losing my gut.

i just watched grey's season 1 & 2 last week. i love that dang show. and last night's episode!! i was a freaking fountain. sad moments, sweet moments. and i am so gonna watch it again tonight. i seriously am going to get in my jamas, get a bowl of cereal (healthy cereal, like grape nuts or all bran, maybe i should slam a v8, maybe that will counteract the crap i ate), and go to bed. watch grey's at seven, then watch a chick flick i rented, then go to sleep. i may not even brush my teeth, yeah right, that's just gross.

blah.